she's out of luck, and out of hope, and out of cigarettes
misunderstood, with naked pictures on the internet
her social deviance is teasing me,
I know what I want
and I really gotta really let her know
that I like her, but I just don't care enough
to fool around with love

So, I feel kinda icky today. I stayed home from school.

I put a bag of tea in my purse during...I don't know, it must have been Veronica's Room, and it exploded and now I have little black bits all over the inside of my purse. It took me a good long while to figure out what in the name of all that is good they were.

I am drinking some of the tea that Kat got me during Burlesque, and it is good. Mmm, sorbet.

Also, I am a bad person and bought more BPAL even though I shouldn't have since I have almost no money.

BUT. (And this is very exciting if you know me.) I filled up an entire journal yesterday. No, not just yesterday. I've been writing in it since April. See, with paper journals, like with online journals, I tend to get bored with them halfway through and go find new ones. So it's a major achievement when I actually do finish one. This may be the second one I've ever finished. Ever.

Anyway. So, that's all that's new and exciting with me today. Since I haven't gotten to go around to everyone yet - I just want to say congrats to everyone that got cast in High School Musical! :D :D :D I'm so proud of my adopted siblings/childrens.

Tags: bpal, lyrics-slash-poetry, school chronicles, tea is greater than everything, the gilbreth siblings, the playhouse, three cheers for my general ineptitude
feeing rather: blah

as we stumble along
on life's funny journey
as we stumble along
into the blue
we look here and we look there
seeking answers anywhere
never sure of where to turn or what to do

Tra la la.

Tra lalala la la la la lalala.

La.

Oh, bother.

Tags: lyrics-slash-poetry, musical theatre is my drug
feeing rather: ambivialent

I don't wanna be cute no more,
make the gentlemen hoot no more,
I don't wanna wear fruit no more -
I don't wanna show off

The Amesbury Playhouse* needs to die in a fire.

That is all.



*Not the people in it. The Den of Iniquity itself.

Tags: hemingway novel!, the playhouse
feeing rather: irritated

finally yes!
finally now!
finally something takes me away!
finally free,
finally he can cut through these strings
and open my wings!

Um. Hi! ::waves:: I'm still alive. I promise.

I ought to be out looking for a job, but I'm updating my livejournal (and checking my email obsessively) instead. And waiting for my phone to ring, breathlessly.

I'm in love, can you tell?

Laughter goes up this Friday, whee! I apparently do know all my lines, as of last night (which is good, because I think I have a grand total of three). (Okay, I'm exaggerating.) (A little.) I don't know if they're going to be taking any pictures or not, but if they do I'll show you all.

And, um. That's it for today! :D!!

Tags: all you need is love, irresponsibility/responsibility, laughter on the 23rd floor, lyrics-slash-poetry
feeing rather: loved

goodbye until tomorrow
goodbye until the rest of my life
and I have been waiting
I have been waiting for you
waiting for you
waiting for you...

Everything in my life just got really weird, but really amazingly wonderful at the same time.

This past weekend was...absolutely the best closing weekend I've ever had. Even though we didn't have a Friday show - actually, that was good, because that's when Rachel and I went up to Maine. (I has a sunburn now, woe.)

This weekend consisted of chai, Rach, tea & cinnamon rolls at 3AM, late night walks on the beach, trying (& failing miserably) to sleep on the porch outside, more chai, cooking, cleaning, not sleeping, having wonderful shows, not being able to sleep, creating a fanclub, Terri being awesome, having my Shirley Temple delivered to me every night (!!), my darling siblings coming to visit me again!, not sleeping some more, having a picnic, listening to The Last Five Years blaring from my car stereo, yet more chai (and more Rach!), having my cover blown (but it would have been at some point anyway), burning some ridiculous moustaches, going to a 24 hour grocery store that closes at midnight (?!), beach pizza & philosophizing with Denise on the hood of my car, and watching Amadeus until my eyes rolled back in my head (cos...again, no sleep?).

All in all, a wonderful weekend. <3 <3 <3 And Laughter starts up on Saturday, so I won't have withdrawl for too long. :D

Tags: denise, laughter on the 23rd floor, lyrics-slash-poetry, musical theatre is my drug, my calling, rachel, tea is greater than everything, the gilbreth siblings, the playhouse, veronica's room, you're so vain
feeing rather: ecstatic

you know what makes me crazy?
i'm sorry, can i say this?
you know what makes me nuts?
the fact that we can be together
here, together
sharing our night, spending our time
and you are going to choose someone else to be with.
yes, you are - no, that's exactly what you're doing

You know? I never update this at night. So here goes?

A lot of things have changed over the past two weeks. I don't think I'll get into them, but I'm continuing to be in a weird place in my life, although things have gotten better.

Veronica's Room continues to be the highlight of the year, for me. If you're in the area, come and see (if you haven't already)! You know you want to know why I look like I've been beaten with sticks about the arms and legs on a regular basis! :D :D (And if you have a flickr account, friend me to see some of the pictures...!)

Laughter starts up in a little over a week. I'm desperately looking forward to this because the cast is phenomenal - all people whose talent I respect a great deal. Plus, I adore at least three of them. :D

I feel like I've been seeing a lot of people, and that's good - that's very good. Last summer, I hardly saw anyone unless they were in shows with me. I do very much miss some people, though. I'm trying to get ahold of them, too.

I finally got fed up with people telling me they'd get me copies of The Last Five Years and bought a copy for myself. And it's amazing. I wish I could sing like Sherie Renee Scott - ALL of her songs are great audition songs.

And...I should be in bed, seeing as how I need to be at the Playhouse tomorrow at noon.

Tags: all you need is love, laughter on the 23rd floor, lyrics-slash-poetry, music is my boyfriend, musical theatre is my drug, my calling, omgz busy!, the playhouse, veronica's room
feeing rather: calm

Yeah, so. Veronica's Room.

Come see it.

Tags: the playhouse, veronica's room, you're so vain
feeing rather: excited

I could have a mansion on a hill
I could lease a villa in Seville
but it wouldn't be as nice as a summer in Ohio
with a gay midget named Karl, playing Tevye...
and Porgy

Well, I've got some of my pictures uploaded to Flickr. I'm planning on dumping them all in my photobucket later. A bunch of the ones on Flickr are friends/family only, because...because. :P I'm still waiting for Alex, Mum, and Chris to send me their pictures as well.

I love the mix cd that Kat made for meeee (and this song, a lot). I love all the mix cds that people make for me! They're all wonderful! "A Summer in Ohio" rocks my world at the moment, though.

BLARGH VERONICA'S ROOM. I'm way excited. and unprepared. My everything still hurts from being thrown around the other night. And we're taking pictures tonight, and I think I'm supposed to wear my own clothes (for the beginning), but I don't know what! I only have one good pair of jeans, and they're black. Maybe I'll go get something tonight.

And tomorrow night, we're having our read through for Laughter on the 23rd Floor, which I am very excited about doing.

And and and! Um, that's it. :D Oh, yeah - life is still weird, and I'm not coming out of my safe corner til it stops.

I could have a satchel full of dollar bills
cures for all the nation's ills
pills to make a lion purr
I could be in line to be the British queen
look like I was seventeen
still I'm certain I'd prefer to be going slowly batty
forty miles east of Cincinnati

Tags: costuming addiction, laughter on the 23rd floor, music is my boyfriend, my calling, my nuclear family, omg yay!, omgz busy!, the playhouse, veronica's room, you're so vain
feeing rather: anxious

"do you want to run away together?"
i would say it was your best line ever
too bad i fell for it
and i walked alone
waiting for you to come along
take my tortured heart by the hand
and write me off

It continually amazes me that every time Michelle Branch comes out with something new, it seems to speak about the place I am in my life. Though I'm sure that there are many people who could say the same exact thing. Yay for The Wreckers!

So, I am home, and alive! Two points for me, I should think!

I have tons of pictures and stories, and pictures to go with the stories, and stories about pictures, and just about every combination of the words "stories" and "pictures" that you can think of. Suffice it to say, it was beautiful and wonderful. I only got a little sunburnt, which is good.

But most of all, I am glad to be back home. I missed everyone. :)

Veronica's Room goes up in two weeks, and for all intents and purpouses, I ought to be continuing to learn my lines tonight, but instead I am doing...something...with the kids. Not sure what, yet, but. Something.

Life is still really weird, and I think it'll continue to be so for a while now. I was almost hoping that all the weird things would be over and done with by the time I got back, but they keep continuing. Well, whatever. Life can be weird, I'm going to go play in my safe corner with my dolls, if you'd all like to come with! :D

Tags: adventures!, all you need is love, hemingway novel!, lyrics-slash-poetry, music is my boyfriend, my calling, the gilbreth siblings, veronica's room
Current Location: not hawaii
feeing rather: grateful

you never give up
I can't believe anything you say
and it must be my luck
'cause no one else gets treated this way

and I wanna know
what goes on in that head of yours
yeah, I wanna know
'cause I don't think I can take much more


Ambiguously appropriate song lyrics, aweigh!

It just started downpouring. And stopped? I have to go learn my lines for rehearsal tonight, so this will be quick.

I'm leaving for Hawaii in nineteen hours and twenty-nine minutes, according to the countdown on my cell phone. :)

Look, pictures! That's where I'll be putting all my pictures from various adventures, including my Hawaii trip. :)

I'm going to miss you all, lots & lots!


rain
you must be sick or something
I can't take another day
rain
is falling down
but will the sun come out again?

Tags: adventures!, denise, lyrics-slash-poetry, veronica's room, you're so vain
feeing rather: calm